No Ctrl-Z :(

Life is tough. You can't make another first impression, you can't relive a fantastic moment that you want to last forever. You can't skip and fast-forward the bits you don't like. There is no Ctrl-Z. Nothing. The thing you do is move on. Only it's sometimes harder than you think it'll be...


This rollercoaster called "Life" will make you laugh, and it will make you cry. It'll be the hero in the fairytale, or sometimes the villain. So, you might say, Can I choose to get of that rollercoaster? The answer is a cold no. No. You just move on. You have to hold tight, and keep going.


There were times in life that my rollercoaster was upside down, in eternal loops, making me feel very dizzy. But I had to: I had to cope because I was strong. I knew I could, I just needed a bit more courage.


Hard times will always make you more hurt-proof. When your family decides to part, it's like the whole of your world crumbling. Living with family still makes you somewhat a child: you rely on them: the mood you have might be affected by it. So when it all ends, you have no idea where to go. I always imagined my family in the small percentage of couples who hadn't divorced, but oh well. You don't always get what you like.


You might think to yourself, Why me? Well, it's you. Sorry, but it's you.
It hurts, you have a feeling that your life is some kind of survival TV show. But it's not. It's your Life. And I must say that there were times that I absolutely hated karma, fate, destiny: everything that was planned for you in the heavens. I thought to myself: My life is like a really long sad song (hey, that rhymes (: ). So that also means I don't listen to sad songs anymore- it's a miracle if I make it to the end on the song without my mood suddenly dropping.


But then I thought about all the things that can also happen, even if one part of my life is not so much correct and how I wanted. As I said, you haven't always got the opportunity of picking your destiny.


So I moved on as it was. And now I have a blog! I have a blog! You have no idea how much better I feel, now that I have told you about this and everything that was bubbling up inside me. I was feeling really worried that no-one would read this blog, but I think a lot of people actually do :) Thank you all for being here and I hope this wasn't too serious for you ❤


Keep checking for new posts,
Love,
Amber ❤